AbusersAnon.com – A help centre for domestic abusers

Im 30 and until about 3 years ago, very mature. When I was 10, I lost 2 neighbors who I was very close to. After this, my family moved and I started in a new school where I was made fun of mercilessly. Same time, my brother became suicidal and depressed. My mom couldn’t cope well and my dad has never been very active in our lives or emotions, so I bottled em up and cried alone in the basement into the early hours of the morning until I started with obsessive praying (usually 4-5 hrs PER NIGHT). I blamed this for a long time on my emotional immaturity now.

Then I was stuck in the internet after years of the praying (until I couldnt take it anymore) and now I’m a 3rd yr dent student who has been abusing alcohol for all 3 years along with internet use. I blame the things that happened when I was younger but truth be told, I should be able to handle it. Dent school stresses me out like NO OTHER! So I drink and drink until I can get it out of my mind which now is about 6 drinks. The ave night brings me 4 drinks but I see it increasing and until 6 months ago, I could stop. Now I just can’t when I start and I can’t find solutions. I know it’s a problem for me and my husband… but I dont even have a desire to live without it in my life!

What can be done?

Perhaps you should seek professional help as a professional can give you more insight into exactly what is going on. Your life can be improved and you are not alone. Sometimes we have a way of complicating things for ourselves needlessly. At times we need to go back to the basics and take it from there. Eventually things fall into place.
You don`t have to be stuck or feel stuck anymore.

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